Category: Trauma, Self-awareness, Inner peace

In his one-man show, Springsteen on Broadway, Bruce Springsteen offered this summary of our first leaders, our parents: “We are ghosts or we are ancestors in our children’s lives. We either lay our mistakes, our burdens upon them, and we haunt them, or we assist them in laying those old burdens down, and we free them from the chain of our own flawed behavior. And as ancestors, we walk alongside of them, and we assist them in finding their own way, and some transcendence.”

Parents, teachers and employers are leaders alongside their families, classrooms, and businesses. Leaders have the opportunity to model how to handle conflicts peacefully or not. Every day brings new opportunities for restorative leadership, as well as learning possibilities for children, students and workers. Schools that offer restorative justice practices, such as “peace circles” to resolve student conflicts, often enable positive student behavior changes in academic tasks. Perhaps we need to implement “peace circles” in workplaces for adult learners. Employees as well as kids often do not listen to what is said – they watch what others do.

The environments in which you grew up made a huge difference in your life. Cell biologist Bruce Lipton discovered that the environment shapes our gene expressions. Twenty years after Lipton’s first stem cell research, science named a new field – epigenetics – to explain how your behaviors and environment may cause changes that affect the way your genes work. While Lipton asserts that 95% of one’s life is “programmed” in the first 7 years of development, it is possible that a person can rewire dysfunctional teachings through conscious efforts. We are co-regulators in the challenge to GROW alongside significant others, colleagues, and new people we meet.

G – Gather memories of your upbringing — what relationships worked well? R – Raise yourself to meet your potential. O – Offer your talents to the world alongside others’ talents. W – Widen your horizons to help ALL individuals meet their potential.

Conflict abounds these days. One current example is the rise of stress reports in couples during the COVID-19 pandemic. You may wonder how conflict in couples could make use of restorative justice. Who would serve as the neutral party to keep feedback for each other non-blaming and constructive? A 2021 research report offers a possibility. In a study of 700 U.S. individuals living with a partner, a writing activity had success in resolving conflicts. Each person was asked to write about conflicts with their partner from the perspective of a neutral third party. Once people widen their viewpoint, it is possible to gain more perspective.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

16. Where might you practice restorative justice in your life?

17. When you widen your perspective, what new behavior seems possible?      

Schools are back in business this autumn, but do they carry out their business with best practices?

I thought of an old tune that I learned as a child. Thankfully, only some of the words reflect my personal experience: “School days, school days / Dear old Golden Rule days / Reading and ‘riting and ‘rithmetic / Taught to the tune of the hickory stick…” is an American song from 1907 by Will D. Cobb and Gus Edwards. Teaching the Golden Rule has an ancient past – going back to Chinese philosopher Confucius who lived in the 5^th century BC. Whipping also has a long past.

As a school psychologist and family therapist, I have heard too many stories of child abuse attached to “learning” lessons. This punish-‘em-to-make-‘em-learn-a-lesson approach has no research to suggest that it is a good idea. Hitting children to instill lessons is old-school teaching. Imagine this: one Massachusetts schoolhouse built in 1793 had a built-in whipping post in the floor for tying up wayward children for flogging. Corporal punishment in schools is still legal in 19 U.S. states today.

Negative developmental outcomes of corporal punishment is a present topic. In 1989 The Convention on the Rights of the Child was adopted by the General Assembly of the United Nations, but only 4 countries prohibited physical punishment in all settings then. Over 30 years later, only 63 countries have fully prohibited corporal punishment. Only 14% of children worldwide are fully protected by law from physical punishment.

Meanwhile, the silent pandemic swept through public and private school halls in 2020. This year a newer broom, the Delta variant of COVID-19, sweeps hallways and classrooms with even more punishing effects for children. Many students become home-schoolers overnight when parents (and often, grandparents) have no time to brush up their reading, ‘writing, and ‘rithmetic skills. I wonder how often these newbie teachers resort to hitting methods when their precious children are off-task. Many of these adults line up their laptop computers at the same kitchen table with their children to perform work tasks for their new work-at-home jobs.

We need homes and schools to feature an entrance sign of a Norman Rockwell mosaic that hangs in the United Nations in New York. Entitled Golden Rule, the mosaic features 65 adults and children representing different religions, races and cultures with these words imprinted: “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” This is not just the business of the UN, but also of homes, schools and workplaces everywhere.

We have not yet whipped the COVID-19 virus. The Golden Rule can help out.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

14. Did the adults in your childhood attempt to “teach” you by hitting you?

15. What are key lessons you hold onto from your childhood days?

Watching the coverage over the weekend of the U.S. 20-year anniversary of 9-11 brought up a tsunami of emotion for me. First there was sadness—sorrow—for all those innocent lives cut short on a single Tuesday morning when people were beginning their workday or in flight to an unfulfilled destination. Also, I experienced awe and admiration for the brave first responders who trudged through chaos in futile attempts to save others (or themselves). I flashed on a phrase which is attributed to a Taoist sage, Chuang Tzu, who lived 2000+ years ago: “When you open your heart, you get life’s 10,000 sorrows, and 10,000 joys.”

Collectively, we came together as a country of open-hearted people in the early days that followed 9-11 to surround the broken families from tragedy with love and sustenance. Powerful possibilities exist when people unite for a common cause, as in the many acts of compassion in the COVID-pandemic of sharing both collective sadness and resolve.

French sociologist Émile Durkheim coined the term collective effervescence to describe a community coming together to share energetic communication and engagement in the same action: “A shared misfortune has the same effect as…a happy event. It enlivens collective feelings, which lead individuals to seek one another out and come together…feelings intensify when they are collectively affirmed. Like joy, sadness is heightened and amplified…every person is pulled along by every other.”

While Durkheim saw such communal efforts as embodying religious experience, there are many secular examples–serving meals to first responders during the pandemic, cleaning up neighbors’ debris after hurricanes and floods, as well as soccer/football fans cheering on their favorite team. When you experience collective effervescence, you have an open heart. You feel connected and have a sense of belonging.

I suspect that loneliness, or lacking belongingness, may accompany an individual with a “closed-down” heart. The common expressions of “heartless” or “hard-hearted” are used to describe one who is unsympathetic or insensitive to others’ needs. But of course, everyone alive has a beating heart. I read an interesting detail: if beating heart cells in a Petrie dish do not touch each other, they have independent beats. However, after 2-3 days, “monolayers” (a cell culture of closely packed cells) form an interconnection that beat in unison. We need more healthy heartbeats that beat together.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

12. What does an “open” heart mean to you?

13.  When are times that you close your heart to others?  

As a follow-up to my retirement survey of individuals ages 55-98, I asked participants to answer questions about how the pandemic affected their personal identity, how they spent their time, what they missed, what lessons they learned, and what unexpected gifts came from the pandemic.

I was not surprised to find that the pandemic ordeal is a time of angst for many, as I had my own challenging days, especially when friends died. One friend died of COVID-19 the same day my daughter came “down” with COVID symptoms. She had traveled by car across the country to work from my home around the winter holidays. She did not pack COVID in her Prius along with her harp. Although wearing a cloth mask, she encountered the virus by standing in a 45-minute line at my local post office when she needed international stamps for holiday cards.

Fortunately, two weeks of delivering meals to my daughter’s bedroom door kept the virus under wraps. Meanwhile, the presents remained wrapped under the tree until after Christmas. My daughter remarked that this was the first time I had “grounded” her. (What parent would “ground” a child on Christmas?) Fortunately, my daughter never lost her taste or humor.

Survey participants offered these comments:

85-year-old female (retired 23 years; “sad to no longer volunteer due to health issues”): “I think this pandemic has made me more of an introvert. I try to stay connected to friends by phone or email, but it is not the same…sometimes I felt imprisoned!”

78-year-old female (retired11 years; currently volunteers 2 hours/week): “I was tutoring an ESL group every week which I had to give up because of technology difficulties. I also lost my husband and best friend. Everything I thought I knew about myself has been changed and needs a restart…there is nothing predictable in life.”

72-year-old male (semi-retired 10 years; engaged in pro bono professional activities and writing a second edition to a previous book; volunteers “in chunks”): “…providing e-learning support and childcare for my grandchildren full-time…an all-encompassing commitment. Life is short and can be compromised in a moment.”

In spite of the pandemic, these same individuals discovered gifts: “Through our church website or YouTube, our Sunday morning services were broadcast. That was a real blessing.”  “(I was) connecting by zoom with friends across the U.S. on a regular basis–value every moment and every life!” “(Spending) intense time with one set of grandkids was a gift.”

A Chinese proverb can guide us: “Pearls don’t lie on the seashore, if you want one, you must dive for it.”   All of us might dive deep to pry open gifts or pandemic pearls when the going gets tough.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

10. How has the pandemic affected your personal identity?

11. What unexpected gifts came from the pandemic?  

Pearls have been worn by 24 of our First Ladies. Martha Washington started the tradition. Her uplifting dove-shaped pearl pin is a symbol of both peace and hope. Abigail Adams wore pink faux pearl beads. A Dolly Madison portrait shows a single strand of black pearls. More recently, Jackie Kennedy, Nancy Reagan, Hillary Clinton, Laura Bush and Michelle Obama all kept the pearl tradition going, but it was Barbara Bush’s signature strands of faux pearls that seemed prominent every time she was photographed.

Pearl-wearing is alive and well with our first female Vice President, Kamala Harris. Pearls are a wisdom symbol for Harris’ college sorority, AKA, the first Black Greek-letter organization for women. Like Bush’s photos, the photos of Harris feature signature pearls, beginning with her college graduation picture.

Pearl-loving Barbara Bush wrote a book, Pearls of Wisdom: Little Pieces of Advice (That Go a Long Way). In opening words from her book are these precious-as-pearls words for daily life: “I can think of no better lesson to teach you than to try—and oh boy, how hard it is—to always find the good in people and not the bad.”

Her pearls-of-wisdom words are pearls of peace. When we think of others in positive ways, we experience inner peace. However, seeing the best traits or parts of another’s personality is often elusive in our culture-of-criticism today. We could use more pearls of wisdom–the phrase dates to the early 1800’s, although there are references to the preciousness of pearls in the Bible and the Quran. In Buddhism the pearl is a symbol of spiritual wealth.

Bush parleys many word gems in Pearls of Wisdom: “For heaven’s sake enjoy life. Don’t cry over things that were or things that aren’t. Enjoy what you have now to the fullest…people do not want to be around a whiner. We can always find people who are worse off, and we don’t have to look far! Help them….” 

The COVID pandemic provides us with both worse-off suffering and surprising opportunities. We have not yet grieved all of the lives lost to an invisible foe. However, this health crisis also is an opportunity for us to pull together, regardless of political party affiliation. Pearls are not worn only in red states or only in blue states. Can pearls unite us? 

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

8. Each person forms certain habits, often represented through symbolism, to live by. What symbols hold meaning for you?

9. What little pieces of advice do you give yourself on a daily basis? 

People are not only stingy with their money; they are stingy with their love. And as surprising as this may seem, people are stingy with love for themselves! While there is debate about how many days it takes for a person to make a change in behavior, physician Christiane Northrup recommends that you practice an affirmation for 21 straight days to jump-start a change. And she recommends sweet-talk: “…beloved, please change me into someone who loves myself fully.”

Your words will take a different tone but edit your words if you find you are swearing at yourself! It depends upon each person, but research on health-related changes found that it took an average of 66 days to set a new habit; some individuals needed more days! If your chosen behavior change is linked to some passion, you have a better chance for success. Also, when in the midst of a pandemic, you may find that you have new changes in how you view time.

Unfolding habitual thinking and behavior is challenging because it takes time. Remember, it takes a pearl time to fully form. You can change parts of your personality that you know you can no longer live with easily. Novelist James Baldwin observed: “Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without but that we know we cannot live within.”

The pandemic has unmasked certain behaviors in us while also requiring that we physically mask up to be with other people, especially in any interior spaces. In my survey of retired and semi-retired folks about how they coped with the pandemic, there was a range of responses. Here is how one 71-year-old man (retired 7 years and currently volunteering 8 hours each week) responded to my question about how he spent time in 2020-2021: “I actually had more contact with out-of-town relatives since I started using Zoom…I learned that I can still adapt at age 71!”

Greek philosopher Aristotle is attributed with this action line-up: “All human actions have one or more of these 7 causes: chance, nature, compulsions, habit, reason, passion, desire.” Do not leave your actions up to chance. And put a little love into your actions!

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

6. How has the pandemic affected any of your behavior changes in the past year and a half?

7. What behavior change would you like to make happen next?                                 

Birthdays have an effect on us, in one way or another. Some look forward to their birthday and some not so much. It can be a time to “take stock,” or assess your situation in life and rewire your personality for further growth. Quieting the mind with reflection helps our personality part that “runs things” to take a needed break (this part is called ego by some, but you can name it anything you want). When we stop our nearly constant mind chat, even for a brief time, we can encounter inner peace.

When such mindfulness happens, we may allow snippets of our personalities we may have pushed away–or exiled from awareness—to show us emotions, thoughts, and sensations that need airing. We can ask ourselves questions that take us to a Plan B, Plan C, or even a Plan Z. Taking time to listen, really listen, to our taking-stock times is healing. New wisdom can develop from old memories. It is possible to restring or rewire old thoughts that have weighed heavily on our minds.

Traumatic memories often hold burdens, both our own and sometimes the burdens we carry for relatives or others. This reminds me of the cone-shaped “burden basket” found in the caves of the Anasazi Canyon de Chelly in Arizona. The tightly coiled basket was worn like a backpack with an additional strap to wrap across one’s forehead to steady a heavy load. I wonder how often the carriers of such burden baskets had headaches. Internal burden-carrying can bring on psychic headaches.

Today is my mother’s 99^th birthday. I asked her if she was carrying any burdens from long ago. Mom told me that her father had admonished her to NOT marry my father, but she said to her dad that was exactly what she was going to do! She is happy with her marriage decision, however disagreeing with elders was burdensome. In one of her many pearls of wisdom today, Mom emphasized the importance of questioning. She focused on the word, quest. A song she has referenced for many years has a line with “glorious quest” in it. If you are curious, check out The Impossible Dream lyrics.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) Quiz

6. Even if today is not your birthday, “take stock” of your personality.

7. Are there any burdensome thoughts and emotions lurking in stories you hold onto? 

STOP. Embrace 3 L’s – LOOK, LISTEN, and LOVE. Do you stop completely at a stop sign or are you a rolling-stop kind of person? Many of us adopt the rolling-stop at intersections unless we see a police car near-by. It may be an indication of how we live our lives. What’s next? I can’t wait to ______! We are so eager to “be there,” wherever that may be. What about being HERE?

Do you STOP at the intersection of one thought before going into the next thought? Often, I do not make even a rolling-stop between thoughts. What does it take to come to a full STOP in your mind? I find that a 20-minute meditation practice is helpful, but not foolproof. How do you practice stopping your mind chat for inner peace?                                                                                           

What is important is that you find ways to LOOK. Look in both directions. Look at negative chat and positive chat. Look with curiosity. Look without judgment. Look with flexibility. Look at THIS MOMENT and listen. What? What is there to listen to in “this moment?”  

LISTEN for your breath to slow down. Listen to your in-breath. Listen for your out-breath. After listening to your body, listen to your inner thoughts. Listen to what you tell yourself in the intersections of your driving. Listen to what you tell yourself in intersections of your thinking. Recognize that you can experience space between busy thoughts. Holocaust survivor Victor Frankl is attributed with the wise saying: “Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response.” That space is a “pearl” of peace – a calm and compassionate state of being. Generations of people have labeled such spaciousness with many names.

LOVE. What? That’s part of stopping at a frigging stop sign? Yes! Love how you have the freedom to drive yourself somewhere. Love how the intersection STOP sign is for your safety and the safety of others. Love this moment of time. Take time to watch a butterfly. Love how you have constant intersections between thoughts. Love how consciousness of your many thoughts is a possibility. Too often we are not aware of our own thinking patterns and how they attach to traumas we experienced in the past.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) quiz:

4.What are the times that you recognize the spaciousness of calmness and compassion?

5. Do you have a name for such a state of being?

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            

Pop bead “pearls” have flexibility as they can be pulled apart to make new combinations of beads. Sometimes people lose any sense of flexibility. They struggle to make new configurations in their personalities. There are no easy developmental paths. Most of us have tripped up, slipped up or even flipped upside-down when we encountered irritants along life’s journey. In the teen years, as a parent, and in retirement we grapple with the perennial question, “Who am I, really?” There is no one answer, as we play many parts or roles in our personality through the decades. Shakespeare’s As You Like It called the world a “stage” and told of each person “playing” many parts. Pop beads offer play, but adults may forget they have playful parts in their personalities. Remember, you are writing your own script.

People used to think of personality as set like plaster at age 30, but the reality is that personalities have plasticity like pop beads! You can make personality changes! The “Big Five” traits of personality in research–conscientiousness, agreeableness, neuroticism (a pessimistic attitude characterized by anger, anxiety, and/or depression), openness, and extraversion–are open to shifts for inner peace in adulthood.

How might pearls relate to peace? Born from adversity, pearls have something in common with peace. We marvel at the luster and simple beauty of a natural pearl without considering its fragile beginnings. Similarly, we admire peace–within ourselves, in our families and community, nation and planet–often with little appreciation of the struggles involved along the way before peacefulness could shine through.

It can take centuries to create peace within a nation. It may take decades to form some semblance of inner peace in your personality. Start creating more inner peace within yourself today. It is a possibility. Pop a pearl of peace into your thinking today.

Pearls of Peace (PoP) Quiz

2. What have been irritants in your life?                                                                                                                 3. Did you grow wiser in any way because of some “irritant”? If so, in what way(s)?  

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We will be pearl farmers in this blog, pearls-of-peace farmers. I read online directions for how to “farm pearls” at home: “Place a small bead made from another oyster’s shell into the reproductive organ (if you can find it).” Hmm…this is getting interesting. “Place a piece of another oyster’s mantle (the organ which makes the shell) with the bead…close the oyster, put it back in water, and wait for 2-3 years.” This pearl-raising makes waiting 9 months for a baby sound less daunting. However, some pearls fail to form in their parent shell and some babies fail to thrive. Miscarriage and other baby traumas are more common than most people realize.  

At a further point along personal odysseys, some individuals cannot wait for their retirement. Then they arrive “there” and do not find the peace of mind that was imagined. Successful pearl farming may appear to be an easy way to make a living, but it is a long-term investment. A successful retirement also is a long-term investment of time and money for a quality outcome. More importantly, I believe that a quality retirement experience requires one to rewire their personality and ability skillset in this important developmental stage of living. Regardless of your present age, what parts of your personality might benefit from rewiring?

The word rewire has meanings for both electricity and psychology. Rewiring refers to replacing faulty electrical wiring when thinking of electrical work. Psychologically, rewiring is a personality self-reorganization to provide a greater sense of purpose and meaning. Like pearls strung together for a necklace, you have various parts of your personality strung together. Is it time to restring or rewire?

Pearls of Peace—PoP quiz:

1. What is your association to pearls?  

My first pearls were a gift from my mother-in-law. She gave me her mother’s pearls. Legacy pearls are a metaphor for ancestor importance.    

To read more about Jan and her books, please visit Janis Johnston’s website.